On Patreon 3

One of my main goals with Patreon is to create a more sustainable context for my work. So that I can invest myself more deeply into my next ideas.

As I’ve stated before, I didn’t really see this path before. But now that it’s in front of me, I wanna see where it takes me. But I can’t just half-ass it, I need to commit to it. That’s why I’m so obsessed with this next step. Because Vimeo won’t change their mind. And Pornhub isn’t an actual solution.

The idea of changing porn from within is still interesting to me. But at the same time I have to distance myself from porn in order to be accepted in places like Vimeo and Patreon.

So what would be a solution? Right now, I’m back to the idea of hosting my videos myself. I’m still not sure if it makes sense, but it’s the only thing I can think of. So that I don’t have to worry about guidelines. And I don’t have to surrender the rights of my creations. And I don’t have to be just another girl on a website full of them. And I don’t have to choose whether my video is worth $4.99 or $9.99.

I have so many ideas of where I could take my work. So many things I would like to heal and explore. But as long as I don’t have a sustainable, safe context, I’m not gonna be able to go there.

I’ve even switched jobs this fall, to one that hopefully will leave me more energy to make videos. This was really not an easy thing for me. New environments are always the hardest to handle, in maintaining enough inner safety to fend off panic attacks. But I’m not kidding when I say I want to be on this path.

4 thoughts on “On Patreon 3

  1. I like how you are reasoning this out for yourself. It makes sense what you say. Like me it seems you do that best by speaking or writing things out. You might even self-host your blog so you control that as well. Just a thought😄

    Liked by 1 person

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s